Excellent question bikerrev. It's actually the question that's been rattling around in my head lately and didn't become well formed until you asked it.
I don't presume to judge how others would answer this question so I will address it from my own perspective. So for the first part, "how much do I need my bike to know who I am, or how much do I need my bike to let others know who I am." I'll speak to the last part first. I don't need my bike to let others know who I am. Being a "Lone Biker" I tend to ride by myself so the only people who see me are those that I pass on the road. They are generally faceless people busy going somewhere and focusing on the destination, not the ride. I honestly don't care how they perceive me. Now as for the first part "how much do I need my bike to know who I am" that one is a lot more difficult.
For me, riding is far more than just the technique and the machine. It's about being "out there" in the world. Seeing the first rays of sunlight breaking through the rocks at the bottom of a deep canyon, feeling the sting of the rain as those first few big drops begin to fall, feeling the bite of the cold mountain air, gravity's strong hand pushing you down as you are heeled over in a sharp curve. Seeing the majesty of God's creation spread out before you as you finally reach the mountain top, the rough massage of the 80mph wind as you cruise the open plain with eternity spread out before you. It's the agony of finding a fallen comrade on a high mountain road, feeling the compasion pour out as you hold and comfort him while you wait for the Flight for Life helicopter all the while watching the sheer agony on his face. This for someone you've never met before and who's only connection is a love for riding. You see, riding is about extremes, it's about those things in the middle but most of all it's about experiencing life and how you respond to it. For me, a motorcycle is that catalyst that lets me truely live life. So in that respect, I do use my bike to know who I am.
Now for the second part of your question "Am I dependent on my bike for my identity and self worth, or is my bike just a part of who I am and I would be who I am with or without the bike." There was a significant part of my life, when my kids were growing up that I didn't ride. That was my choice, no pressure from anyone else, but that's a discussion for another time. I don't believe that I was any different then than now. I continued to grow and learn more about myself and a lot of that was through the eyes of my kids. They truely can be wonderful teachers. So to that I would have to say, no, I'm not dependant on my bike for who I am. Like I said, I think my bike helps me better understand who I am and enjoy the beauty of nature but I'm not dependant on it for that.
The internet has provided a way for me to share the beauty I see
around me as I ride with others of like mind. I include my bike in each
picture because it is the bike that has gotten me "out there" to enjoy
the beauty. So it's more like a signiture than an attempt to focus on
the bike.
You see, for me, a big part of riding is also being a philosopher and
bikerrev, you just happened to ask the right question.
Forgot my camera so here's a
picture in words
A deep blue sky and crisp clear air with just a touch of winters
breath.
In and out of the mottled light as it's filtered through the pines.
The fresh scent of pine and the whisper of the wind through the trees.
The silent herd of deer grazing on the new shoots of grass.
The emerald hills of green, awakened by the spring snows.
The red tailed hawk, drifting on the breeze.
A great blue heron lifting from the pond.
The deep blue sky reflecting from the catch basins full from melted
snow.
The raging stream, swollen from the spring run off.
The awakening grass lands beginning to ripple in the wind.
A wave of antelope, gliding across the rolling plains.
The spring calves, playfully bounding around the fields.
The summer clouds, like balls of cotton, drifting acrosss the sky.
The wide expanse of rolling plains, seeming to go on forever.
The silence of the prairie, broken only by the ticking of the cooling
exhaust.
The open road, the endless sky, the thrumming of the engine, and the
beating of my heart.
God, it's great to be alive!
You gotta taste the bitter to enjoy the sweet
It snowed again the other day. As I was shoveling out the sidewalks to make my path to the main road, I got to thinking about riding on that first Spring day. You know what I mean, crisp clear air, blue sky, grass just starting to green up, that warm spring sun heating your body as you ride. Something to really look forward to. Then it occurred to me, what makes that ride so special is that it's different from my riding right now. It's the yin and yang, the hot and cold, that bitter and the sweet. So take heart, my biker friends, what we endure today will only make what will soon be coming, that much sweeter.
About that book...
From time to time, people ask me if I'm going to do a book or a calendar. I have given it some thought but have decided not to. For me, it's about the ride. The Rocky Mountains and the High Plains are my favorite places to ride and the scenery there is just fantastic. By capturing a small glimpse of what I see and sharing it with others I hope to promote the part of riding that is being out there in the elements and the natural beauty of things. So much of owning a motorcycle is about the material side of things. What gear to wear, what accessories to add to the bike, etc, etc. That side is important too but I feel that others cover it quite well so I tend to focus more on the spiritual side of riding, that Zen thing. That's what I hope to bring across in my pictures.
I find that the internet is my media of choice for sharing my pictures. It's free to anyone who wants to look, just like the the views I capture. There's a pleasant irony to that. I also have my pictures licensed under the Creative Commons license which means that anyone is free to take any of my pictures and use them for whatever they want as long as they don't make money from them. Again, free just like the views I see on my rides.
Reflections on the last 100,000 miles and then some
Was doing some figurin' the other day and I realized that since I started riding again in 2004 I've logged around 100,000 miles on my bikes. Got me to thinking about it and I realized that it's been the happiest time of my life. Grant it, there's points in time like my marriage and the birth of my kids that are my happiest moments but these past 4 years have generally been the happiest. So I was wondering why.
Seems like the watershed event for me happened just after I started riding again. In the space of about a year, I lost four people who were close to me to cancer. They were all about my age and it made me realize that my time on this earth is limited and I should enjoy it while I can. It was with that realization that I quit worrying about what tomorrow would bring and started living one day at a time. That attitude carried over into my job (stopped worrying about getting promoted), my relationships with family and friends (enjoy them as they are right now, not what they could be) and my riding (go wherever the road takes me and don't worry about where I am or when I get home).
But the riding piece is definitely what's been the catalyst to my happiness. It just keeps getting better with each new mile. I've ridden well above the clouds, well below the level of the ocean, felt the searing heat of summer and the frigid bite of winter. I've felt the sting of a driving rain, the pain of hail, been tossed about by those gusty High Plains Spring winds but mostly I've enjoyed the empty road, the clear blue sky and the sights and sounds of the wide open country.
I used to ride a lot in my younger years. I have many fond memories of riding the back country roads of Western Pennsylvania. It was a different time though. The Vietnam War was going on and I knew it was just a matter of time before I had to go. That and the typical problems of a teenager hung over my head and kept me from really enjoying the ride. After I got back from the war, I spent a whole summer just riding around the northeastern part of the US. That was a time of healing for me but again, all that baggage I brought back from the war kept me from really enjoying the ride.
I've reached a time in my life where I can finally let go of all those things I worried about in the past. My health hasn't ever been better. My blood pressure which was once too high is now perfectly normal without aid of medication. I can't remember the last time I was sick and I regularly volunteer at the Elementary School where my wife works so it's not like I'm not exposed to germs. I'm convinced it's the riding that's been my best medicine.
You can spend your life pursuing things that you think will make you happy, fretting over the past and worrying about the future or you can spend your life enjoying today. Each day is a gift, that's why it's called the present. Get out there and enjoy the ride!
On herding cattle
I was out exploring some back roads on the High Plains that I'd not yet traveled. I happened upon a herd of cattle that had gotten through the fence and onto the roadway. I knew from my experience riding open range that the best way to get by them was to take it slow and easy, keep the engine noise to a minimum and don't make any sudden moves. I got about half way past the herd when the front half got spooked and took off down the road. Because the road was fenced on both sides, the cows could only go down the road ahead of me. Most of the cows were on the right next to the fence but the lead cow was running down the right side of the road. Now you have to understand that this was a dirt road that was mainly sand. On that kind of road you have to stick to the packed down tire tracks as the loose sand between the tracks can get pretty squirrelly. As I would come up to the lead cow on the left, she would swing her head around to look at me. That would also cause her to veer to the left into my tire track. I also knew from experience that a spooked cow can deliver a pretty nasty kick so I didn't want to get too close to her. After a couple hundred yards of this I realized that I was just herding cattle and they were going to go as far as I was willing to take them. At that point I just stopped and then they did too. So there I, between two halves of the herd in the unfortunate role of cattle herder. I decided that my best bet was to go back the other direction since that half of the herd hadn't gotten spooked. I took it real slow, had to stop a couple times to keep them from running but I did manage to get past them. Once past, I decided to just go back the way I came and find a different route. I tried to find the ranch that they belonged to and let them know but I wasn't able to. It must have been on down the road in the direction I was first going and I sure didn't want to try herding them all that way again.
So the lesson I learned was if I see a herd of cattle out on the roadway of a fenced road, go the other direction. You gotta know when to hold 'em and know when to fold 'em.
Noise
A loud clap of thunder, the crashing surf, the howling wind, the screeching of the magpie, the barking dogs, the screaming babies, the noisy stereo, and the loud motorcycle pipes. These are all pieces in Nature's orchestra. We can focus on one piece and be annoyed or listen to the whole symphony and enjoy being alive. The choice is ours.
Finding the soul of the machine
One of my three bikes is an '82 Yamaha 550 Maxim. I've had it for about a year and a half and I've put about 20,000 miles on it. Today I finally learned how to ride it.
The 550 Maxim is a fun little bike to ride. It's fairly light, has an inline 4-banger and develops a little better than 50hp. That and the 6-speed transmition make it pretty quick off the line and gives it plenty of power for passing. I bought it as a project bike to resell in the Spring but just couldn't bear to part with it. It is a fairly high strung bike. Has a very small flywheel to allow for quick revs but dies off the line if you don't give it enough gas. It has a stutter in it if you give it too much gas with not enough revs and it starts to break up around 9,500 rpms. I've tried just about everything to get it to run the way I want. Rebuilt the carbs, replaced the ignition, different types of plugs, different grade of gas and so on. Finally I just decided to let the machine tell me how it wanted to be ridden.
I started paying real close attention to what worked best. How much gas to give it starting out, how quickly to let out the clutch, how fast I should accelerate and what engine speed to use for the shift points. Been doing that now for a couple weeks and today it finally all came together. I've developed a feel for the bike and today I had one of those perfect rides. Didn't go anywhere spectacular, just out of town to the southeast on some back roads. The bike just ran flawlessly. Engine was smooth as silk, shifting was as slick as a hot knife in butter and not a stumble or hesitation the whole ride. To top it off, when I pulled in for gas, I had exactly 100 miles on the odometer and it took exactly 2.000 gal. of gas.
My point is, you can work and work at trying to force a machine (or just about anything for that matter) to do exactly what you want it to do but there will always be some nagging problem that keeps popping up. Or, you can accept the machine for what it is, listen to it and become attuned to how it wants to run and it will become that perfect ride.